Vulnerability

As far as growth or advancing in my project goes for this week, I have done some important things. I finished my CAS project video which I am really proud of, it is published and I am super excited for everyone to see it. It took me a really long time, because I hd been gathering clips for a very long time and had a very clear idea of what I wanted to do, though I had to add some modifications. There was a crucial part of this “mini project” that I felt I was 100% vulnerable. I was 1 clip away from finishing my video, in fact I just had to cut a very small part of the last clip to have the video be done; when my computer had a glitch and restarted by itself. Long story short my video got deleted which I had been working non-stop without any distractions in my kitchen for 3 and a half hours straight. I felt like I had just wasted 3 hours of my time that I could have spent doing other assignments and homework, considering the fact that all of the hard work that I put in for 3 hours just disappeared. I was very committed and didn’t want to leave it for last minute because I had a huge business I had to study for the next day. So the first time i id the video I started at 5:45 pm and ended at 8:30 and I decided to restart after looking for it everywhere and trying to find a solution; I restarted it at 10:00 and ended at around 1 am. I was very persistent because I was really proud of it so I decided to just restart it because it was my only option. Another way I’ve felt vulnerable during this week, related to my project is when asking for information. For example I asked my dance teacher for the contact of the person that I need to talk to, to rent the stage. I asked my dance teacher because I want to do the fashion at the same hotel that we do our annual recital at. Everyone knows where it is, easy location, and it has a great structure for what i have planned. Yet she couldn’t really give me information because she told me they don’t really rent this place she’s just an exception because he’s friends with them, and they give her a really good price. In times like these I feel vulnerable, due to my age and the fact that I’m pretty sure if i just asked to them to rent the stage for a fashion show, that is related to a CAS project they will probably think that I am too young or that I will not be able to pay, that the ingresion of people to the stage are is going to be a mess that it i not going to be well organized… I do understand these are common assumptions that anyone would have about a 16 year old trying to rent part of a hotel; yet my mom told me we can still try contacting them they apparently changed administration and if I show them the plan for the show, come with concrete days, ideas, time and obviously money. Then I will probably have a higher chance of being able to use this place.