ACTIVITY!

This break I have been working out and playing soccer a lot! I know I say this a lot jajaja but I did play a lot of soccer during break. I also trained some days at school and for hours because I am preparing myself for tryouts. I was searching for tryouts for national women’s club in Costa Rica. I am also sure that I need to do tryouts for the schools I am applying to in the states. So I need to be ready for them. So I have been training really hard to be mentally and physically ready for them. Although preparing menatally sounds easy, it isn't quite easy to do. In fact, I find that the hardest thing for me to do. See I constantly find myself thinking I am not good enough and I compare myself to others. I think that's what limits me. I have never really talked about that, but although I have 13 years of playing soccer, I still struggle with that. I have noticed this more now than before though. Before I used to play with boys and boys you are constantly trying to be better than them. I remember when I played with the boys team they would always I play like a boy. This didn't bother me because it meant I was good! Now, that I play with girls it’s different, you don’t try to be the best. You want the entire team to be the best. There is no competition which I prefer. I love knowing that I am leading all these girls and inspiring to always seek to be the best as a whole rather than individually. So going back to one of my weaknesses in soccer which is not believing I am good enough, I feel like this is mostly fueled by my family. I think I have mentioned this story before, but my family has not always loved the idea of me playing soccer. So growing up and until this day my mom still doesn't want soccer to be the center of my life. I understand where she is coming from, but I wished she could put my shoes on or just see through my eyes how important soccer is to me. I wished she could understand why I love soccer and how much it has helped me in life. Even though, I want to continue playing soccer in the university, I want to also have a profession and further and have my own business. But going back to preparing for soccer tryouts, I am very nervous for them. I will be training harder than ever the next couple of months and will also be going back to Cantonales with Santa Cruz hopefully starting January. Now, I know this will be a challenge since I am in the final route of IB. But I am motivated to do it and finish high school strong and proud. I am also going to have Paola’s support along the way which will be great because she is a source of motivation for me.Now, regarding my weakness, I believe that I will be ready and will have the confidence to overcome my fear. I am excited yet afraid of what is to come this trimester and new year for me. But I truly hope with my entire heart that I can achieve my goal to play in a national club and I will do whatever it takes to get there. I also hope with my entire heart that I pass IB and get into college. I know these are very big goals, but I know I can achieve them with determination and motivation. P.S: I also met one of my favorite Costarrican soccer players ever! I met Melissa Herrera #7 (my number) in Tamarindo jaja this is a funny story. So basically she was in Flamingo first and so I went there but I didn’t find her. I was so sad about it because I spent like 4 hours looking for her. After that I dm her on instagram and told her I really wanted to meet her! She responded back saying sorry and that she would be around the next couple of days so I could meet her. The next day she posted something on Conchal and so I went there but didn’t find her wither. I texted her again and she said to go to Tama to find her there. So I did, and I met her! She was the nicest person ever and the next thing I knew, she wanted to follow me on instagram and so I continued talking to her on instagram!!!!