Wrap Up CAS Entry

Huh. The end really is near. I don’t really know how to feel about this. On one hand, it feels amazing to look back and reflect on all the progress we made since the inception of the project. On the other, I really don’t feel like we’ve done enough. I guess it’s just part of my nature to just second guess myself, but I can’t help but wonder if I really did much at all. The droughts, the cleaning, the events- they were all so intense as they were happening… but if I really think about it, how much has the project progressed since we took it over?

That’s how I thought for a long time. “I haven’t done anything”. “On a larger scale, this project isn’t anything” and other defeatist mentalities plagued my brain as I reflected on not only my progress as a CAS student… but my progress as a person, too. I mean, this was an opportunity for me to do something to stand out. And now that I’ve had the time to reflect, I’m proud of myself, even if no one else is.

It’s all about perspective. Just like for an outsider, maybe planting a few dozen mangroves isn’t a big deal; maybe my help with this project may not seem like much for an outsider. And maybe it wasn’t. But most importantly for me, this was a great opportunity to develop myself. I got to see some issues with me when working collaboratively, and I kinda know the steps I need to take to better myself. As selfish as it sounds, this was a great opportunity for me to broaden my horizons and do some self-discovery. Furthermore, I really think that this project is something that stands out in my resume. I know that’s a terrible way to look at it, but if anything, this project has really helped me make myself more attractive for potential colleges and employers. But that really isn’t the most important thing for me. I don’t know what is, honestly. I guess I’m still finding out myself. I’m just glad that CAS gave this opportunity to explore myself.

This entry was a kinda grab-bag of prompts. I knew what I wanted to say, and I just kinda grabbed what fit, threw them in this entry, and hoped that everything stuck. I hope it works out…

Thank you for reading.