How Did I Feel Before I Took On The New Challenge?

How did I feel before I took on the new challenge?
So I have been really scared about my garden recently because I have been having some pest issues which got me really worried about my plants and I hope that they don’t all die off, I’ve already tried a solution last week but it did not work out so I went with something more aggressive. Which I had to be really careful with since the spinach that I’m using is not the most delicate plant but they can still die fairly easily. Since I did not want to use any pesticides on the plants I look up some other remedies so I used degradable dish soap, Rubbing alcohol and water and I sprayed it all over my plants and than I let it sit for 15 minutes and then washed it off with water. The soap suffocates the bugs and scares them off and the alcohol burns their shells and dissolves it which leads to death. This challenge really scared me but I believe it might have worked and we will see this week if it actually worked.